This is what it’s like to be me. I just deleted about 800 e-mails and still have this left. It’s going to be a busy day tomorrow going throu7gh all of these and deleting them after reading them.

One of my favorite pics ♡

Despite how horrendously disgusted I am, this situation gives me the perfect segue to talk about a subject that is very important to a lot of people and disregarded by others. I hope this video educates the people who may be unintentionally ignorant about things like this as well as hope that people will start to show Empathy towards others who are stuck in situations or lives that they can not escape. I’ll also throw some updates in this video about my health as well. Oh, BTW - YOU CAN’T FIX STUPID.

Bored doesn’t even come close to describe how I’m feeling right now. Paul’s at the casino instead of going home from work to be with Henry who’s alone in bed, mad at me because I had to go to work. I’m still going to be at work at least another 80 minutes. Paul won’t be home until probably 5 or 6 AM. I told him that if he goes to the fucking casino then im not fucking him tonight like he’s been been begging begging begging me to fuck him tonight. Welp, he didn’t turn around and go home.

Literally my life except all of my bottles have the flip caps because I have severe arthritis in my hands and can’t open a child-proof cap.

LMAOOOOO I first met him in Early Feb 2014 it was only a few days after I moved in with Brandon (could have even been the 1’st) so it’s literally been 10 years and we’re still best friends 10 years later!!!

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There’s someone I haven’t talked to in years who I thought was my friend and it’s oddly weird that this person won’t talk to me, doesn’t care about me, and never checks in on me or gets back to me about anything. It makes me feel like our whole friendship was a lie and this person just used me to pump out information and could be the person behind certain events that have happened to me.

The thing is, I always trust my gut about anybody so I’m not sure why I feel like this now but I hope it’s not true. Either way, I’m happy as fuck that one of my friends who I’ve known since late 2015 is now my new neighbor, and even though she’s not around much I’m glad we’ve got closer over the past 3 years or so. She knows a lot about me and I know a lot about her. It’s nice having a close girlfriend in my life because if you remember, other than my work friends that I see only at work or my best friend Greg I’ve been friends with for over 10 years whom I talk to almost every day the only people that ever come around are Paul’s 50 or 60-year-old Gym bro friends. I get lonely a lot.

I will have a new YouTube video by mid feb!!!!!

Please send me ALLLLL of the questions of the things you want me to go over!!!!

I’ll definitely answer as many questions as I get!!! I’m so sorry I never made videos the past two years. Things have been sooooo insanely hectic. With the situation with the evil cunt who fucked with our property and my husband, my health issues and then my total hysterectomy, problems with my psychiatric nurse practitioner, monthly visits to the cancer center. Needing to come up with $200 for my OxyContin on feb 4th and another $60 something dollars on the 9th for my percocets and baclofens…… nobody using the champagne room on Saturday nights so I just sit here by myself and leave with absolutely no money. Things have been crazy but send me questions my anon options are on.

𝒜𝓁𝓁 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑒𝓂𝑜𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝑜𝑒𝓈.

I’ve had some very stressful phone calls this afternoon and after months of being given the runaround, phone tag, and people changing up their stories from week to week and either going back on their word or acting like it never happened now I have just received some absolutely horrific news and then when I repeated it back to the “messenger” exactly what she said to me but with question marks at the end she decided to say “I never said that!! Don’t put words in my mouth!!” But she did say it, 4 times!! I was just trying to make sure I heard her right because I couldn’t believe what she was saying!!! Now I’m absolutely livid & need to take out my anger on something or somebody. I swear nobody better ✞ me at all because despite completely wanting to die right now I’m still angry as fuck!